I’m done … there I finally said it. This is going to be a strange post to write and I’m not sure where it’s going to go, but I need to write it.
I’ve been blogging for almost 5 years and my heart just isn’t in it anymore. There are only so many lipsticks I can review, only so much skincare I want to test out, only so many palettes I can swatch. I still love makeup and that won’t change, but I just don’t love writing about it.
We’ve recently moved out and it horrified me when I saw how many boxes of beauty products I had. I lost count after 20. Now I say no to a lot of products, I do regular giveaways and I donate products to charity, but I still spent 3 days trying to unpack it all. It’s ridiculous and it also made me feel quite guilty. There are so many people in the world with so little, girls who can’t afford basic sanitary products, and here I am with enough products to stock Selfridges.
At 36 I know the brands that I like and they’re the ones that I use every day. To be honest, I’ve become a bit bored of all the constant new releases and I’ve also got better things to spend my money on. There’s a pressure that comes with blogging to always show the latest product and it can become very expensive. I feel like I’m rambling but my head is so full of thoughts that I’ve wanted to say for a few months now.
Blogging has also brought out a side to me that I really don’t like. I fell into a really bitchy, negative and bitter mindset and I became someone that I no longer recognised. For the last couple of years I have worked hard to rectify this and be the person that I know I am. Life has been very hard over the last couple of years and the last 12 months have been hell with family life. Thankfully, life does seem to be improving and it’s this new feeling of being settled that has made this decision for me.
As sad as this sounds, I’ve really been enjoying setting up my new home, doing the housework, cooking … just living an everyday sort of life. I’ve had no wish to take blog photos, let alone write a post. When you’re at the stage where you’re having to force things, you know it’s time for a change. I still absolutely adore doing my illustrating as it has an extremely beneficial effect on my mental health, so I will continue with that.
Blogging doesn’t pay my bills, it causes me stress and it just doesn’t make me happy. I’ve loved working with my favourite brands, such as Charlotte Tilbury, Jo Malone, Mintd Box, Sunday Riley etc… but if there are things that I want in the future, I’ll do what the rest of the world does and save up for it. I can’t keep blogging just for PR … too many people do and I don’t want to live my life like that.
I’ve made some really lovely friends through blogging, especially the gorgeous Zoe who has been my saviour this past year. I’ve also encountered some of the nastiest, most spiteful people you could ever imagine. Life is too short to have to deal with people like that and I choose not to. I’d always imagined that when I wrote my final blog post that I’d go out in a blaze of glory and expose some of these people, but there’s no point. Nothing will change. The influencer industry has the potential to be amazing, but it’s not there yet. I don’t want to have a new must have foundation every week, or sell my soul for a few quid. Being on the best PR lists isn’t going to mean much on your deathbed really is it?
I’m undecided what I will do with my Instagram, but if you are interested in keeping up with my home journey, you can follow me on @thelancashirehome
For those of you who’ve been loyal readers, and who have stuck with me even when I’ve not deserved it, I really want to thank you. I started blogging as a way to distract myself from the effects of chronic illness and some of you have really helped me through that. I could keep rambling, but I think you can all tell that I’m done. So it’s back to a regular life, buying my own makeup and a more content Angela.